Popular Christian Writer Margaret Feinberg Shares Breast Cancer Struggles, Lessons On Joy In New Book

Margaret Feinberg with her husband Leif Oines and their miniature poodle Hershey. (PHOTO BY AUDREY HANNAH)
Margaret Feinberg with her husband Leif Oines and their miniature poodle Hershey. (PHOTO BY AUDREY HANNAH)

Vertigo. Anemia. Depression. Receding gums. Early menopause. A double mastectomy.

These are just a few of the many terrors that Margaret Feinberg hid from the public after receiving a breast cancer diagnosis in 2013 before age 40. While the popular Christian author’s books have sold nearly a million copies and she speaks to more than 80,000 people each year, she couldn’t find the words to share this part of herself.

“I felt shame after the diagnosis, wondering if I had somehow brought it on myself,” she said. “And I felt a little embarrassed since it involved my female body parts.”

Her choice

With the weight of her secret mounting, Feinberg sought the advice of Matt Chandler, the prominent pastor of the 11,000-member Village Church in Flower Mound, Texas, and a recent cancer survivor himself.

Chandler said she had two options: tell no one, or invite her readers into the journey. She decided to test the waters of the second option, but the results were not what she’d hoped for.

“Many people were supportive and prayerful, but then there were those who filled our inboxes with unsolicited medical advice, stories of everyone they knew who had died from cancer, retribution theology and accusations that I had brought the cancer on myself because of a hidden sin or lack of faith,” Feinberg said. “Those kinds of comments are devastating when you’re in the fight of your life.”

The responses taught her “the church isn’t always a safe place to be when you’re sick.”

With half a dozen trade books and numerous Bible studies published for the popular “Women of Faith” network and LifeWay Christian Stores, Feinberg continued to tour the country to teach at churches and conferences – darting back to her home in Denver for chemotherapy in between trips.

Feinberg decided to break the silence in a new book, “Fight Back With Joy.”

“I had anemia, fatigue, rashes, irritable bowel syndrome, mouth sores, itchy eyes, ringing ears, vertigo, chest pain, receding gums, drilling headaches, even nerve pain that felt like electrocution coursing under my skin. They poisoned me until my toenails fell off and somewhere in there I experienced an early menopause. There was so much torturous pain.”

At her lowest point, Feinberg admits struggling to maintain the will to live.

“Once during treatment, I caught myself thinking, ‘I’d rather be dead,’” Feinberg said. “In those moments, if God would have let me die, I’d have been more than OK with that.”

Many can relate to her struggle, and not just women. An estimated 1.66 million people in the U.S. received a cancer diagnosis in 2014. Approximately 66 percent survived five or more years.

The experience, Feinberg said, revealed the “crappy theology” and “tired teachings” held by many Christians that promise prosperity and a clean bill of health to the faithful. As a result, many Christians aren’t equipped to face such crisis.

“She’s always been a gifted Bible teacher,” said Christopher Ferebee, Feinberg’s agent for nearly a decade. “But there’s a new depth to her writing now that she’s faced this trial. When you can see God’s face in the abyss, it changes you.”

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SOURCE: Religion News Service
Jonathan Merritt

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